whenourheartsbegintoscream:

“The most important thing I learned on Tralfamadore was that when a person dies he only appears to die. He is still very much alive in the past, so it is very silly for people to cry at his funeral. All moments, past, present and future, always have existed, always will exist. The Tralfamadorians can look at all the different moments just that way we can look at a stretch of the Rocky Mountains, for instance. They can see how permanent all the moments are, and they can look at any moment that interests them. It is just an illusion we have here on Earth that one moment follows another one, like beads on a string, and that once a moment is gone it is gone forever.”

- Slaughterhouse-Five , Kurt Vonnegut

OMG THIS. This is what I try to explain to people when they ask me what it’s like having dpd. It’s like all moments, past, present, and future, come together in those few moments of clarity I get. Like a giant monkey with symbols in its hands boxing my ears. The only difference between me and the Tralfamadorians is that I can’t control what I feel or see. This is my favorite book of all time because the only one that understands my mind. 

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